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Tuesday, March 30, 2010
fear into love
Sometimes, it's so easy.
Other times feel like I am crawling on my face,
begging to get through.
Our energy is forceful.
Using it against each other
will surely cause the break.
Our foundation is
strong, pure.
Our hearts,
innocent.
We are changing,
our world and theirs.
We are the world,
let's do our service
turning fear
into love.
Other times feel like I am crawling on my face,
begging to get through.
Our energy is forceful.
Using it against each other
will surely cause the break.
Our foundation is
strong, pure.
Our hearts,
innocent.
We are changing,
our world and theirs.
We are the world,
let's do our service
turning fear
into love.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Kymatica
If you haven't watched this, maybe you should! enjoy : )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XqMH2f0XGeU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XqMH2f0XGeU
Saturday, March 20, 2010
awakening
Each shift (that I am aware of) feels like my senses get stronger and everything is more beautiful.
I seem to have a deeper understanding of life.
I feel closer to nature and it's animals, including the human species.
I feel at peace in my heart.
I understand that pain brings love.
I realize that everything is happening as it should.
I feel something bigger than me, I feel the light.
I am aware that things that make absolutely no sense at all to me now, soon will bring a deep understanding.
I feel healthy and strong.
I am alive, awake and in love with the world.
I seem to have a deeper understanding of life.
I feel closer to nature and it's animals, including the human species.
I feel at peace in my heart.
I understand that pain brings love.
I realize that everything is happening as it should.
I feel something bigger than me, I feel the light.
I am aware that things that make absolutely no sense at all to me now, soon will bring a deep understanding.
I feel healthy and strong.
I am alive, awake and in love with the world.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Bringing it back to the beginning.
Thinking back to the circumstances that brought forth all the questions...
I feel like I have always wondered, everything.
I remember when I first announced I had to go "find myself". All who cared about me "wondered" what in the hell that meant, as did I.
I once tried to end my life, I sat there thinking, "I, can not live with myself anymore". I guess I was going to find out who the hell I was and what myself was going to do about it.
When we talk to ourselves, who's talking? who's arguing with you? who's agreeing?
It turns out, there is more than me.
There were always so many questions. I couldn't understand this talker in my head, usually talking pure shit. Taking up all the time in my world thinking the worst about everyone and everything. Always filling me full of doubt, always nagging. Nothing was EVER good enough. Is this REALLY all there is? Is this REALLY what life is about? I couldn't believe in this. I had no idea what it was I believed, but it was not this.
I spent many years, using everything I could find, to shut this maniac up. Nothing works.
It's as scary as it gets when you start, but listening to yourself and just asking some questions can give you peace. Question yourself. Question everyone. Question Everything. Do you really believe that? Is this true?
Everything we know, everything we believe, was handed to us by our caregivers as children. All the laws were made and rules were set before we were born. When you go searching for yourself, you are looking for what it is YOU really believe, it means really asking yourself what you think. Not what your mom told you was true, or your church, or your grandma... what is true for you?
This way of thinking was handed to you at a very special event in most of our lives....
Do you remember finding out there was no Santa Claus? OR When your children found out?
This happens at the perfect time in our lives and for a very important reason.
This is our cue to question EVERYTHING we have been told.
If your parents lied to you about this, what else have they kept a secret?
what other lies have they told?
I started asking some BIG questions after losing my father and grandfather within a couple months of each other. Two very strong influences in my life.Where did they go? What is it that I REALLY believe? I started questioning everything I was telling myself and what I was understanding from others. I spent a lot of time just listening to the information I was taking in and the people I was surrounding myself with.
One specific time I remember, we were camping at Jordan lake, cruising around on our boat. I was looking down at the quakes coming up the edge of the boat, we were going pretty fast.
I was daydreaming, and thought, I wanna put my hand in the wave. Instantly, I told myself, NO, you'll die.
I'll die? WTF? Seriously, where did that come from? My guess, skiff rides in the cold winter to Hydaburg as a very small girl. Without knowing how enormous every word is, (especially to a young child learning the laws of the world) someone told me I would/could die if I did that. So, here I am 30+ years old, telling myself I will die if I put my hand out of the boat while going fast.
This was when I really woke up to the fact that maybe I tell myself all kinds of stupid shit, and I do.
Now I know to really listen to them and change my laws, just by agreeing to.
Letting some of these laws die is a lot like dying yourself, some of them are deeply ingrained into your entire life and the effects spread wide and thin. There is a let go, and let God. there is a born again. there is a heaven here on earth. there is such a thing as a clear, peaceful mind.
Here I am.
I feel like I have always wondered, everything.
I remember when I first announced I had to go "find myself". All who cared about me "wondered" what in the hell that meant, as did I.
I once tried to end my life, I sat there thinking, "I, can not live with myself anymore". I guess I was going to find out who the hell I was and what myself was going to do about it.
When we talk to ourselves, who's talking? who's arguing with you? who's agreeing?
It turns out, there is more than me.
There were always so many questions. I couldn't understand this talker in my head, usually talking pure shit. Taking up all the time in my world thinking the worst about everyone and everything. Always filling me full of doubt, always nagging. Nothing was EVER good enough. Is this REALLY all there is? Is this REALLY what life is about? I couldn't believe in this. I had no idea what it was I believed, but it was not this.
I spent many years, using everything I could find, to shut this maniac up. Nothing works.
It's as scary as it gets when you start, but listening to yourself and just asking some questions can give you peace. Question yourself. Question everyone. Question Everything. Do you really believe that? Is this true?
Everything we know, everything we believe, was handed to us by our caregivers as children. All the laws were made and rules were set before we were born. When you go searching for yourself, you are looking for what it is YOU really believe, it means really asking yourself what you think. Not what your mom told you was true, or your church, or your grandma... what is true for you?
This way of thinking was handed to you at a very special event in most of our lives....
Do you remember finding out there was no Santa Claus? OR When your children found out?
This happens at the perfect time in our lives and for a very important reason.
This is our cue to question EVERYTHING we have been told.
If your parents lied to you about this, what else have they kept a secret?
what other lies have they told?
I started asking some BIG questions after losing my father and grandfather within a couple months of each other. Two very strong influences in my life.Where did they go? What is it that I REALLY believe? I started questioning everything I was telling myself and what I was understanding from others. I spent a lot of time just listening to the information I was taking in and the people I was surrounding myself with.
One specific time I remember, we were camping at Jordan lake, cruising around on our boat. I was looking down at the quakes coming up the edge of the boat, we were going pretty fast.
I was daydreaming, and thought, I wanna put my hand in the wave. Instantly, I told myself, NO, you'll die.
I'll die? WTF? Seriously, where did that come from? My guess, skiff rides in the cold winter to Hydaburg as a very small girl. Without knowing how enormous every word is, (especially to a young child learning the laws of the world) someone told me I would/could die if I did that. So, here I am 30+ years old, telling myself I will die if I put my hand out of the boat while going fast.
This was when I really woke up to the fact that maybe I tell myself all kinds of stupid shit, and I do.
Now I know to really listen to them and change my laws, just by agreeing to.
Letting some of these laws die is a lot like dying yourself, some of them are deeply ingrained into your entire life and the effects spread wide and thin. There is a let go, and let God. there is a born again. there is a heaven here on earth. there is such a thing as a clear, peaceful mind.
Here I am.
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