We are out of balance when we are searching for the "right" or "wrong"
the "ins" and "outs" the "ups" and "downs.
Balance is found in the center.
"Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is a field. I’ll meet you there." ~Rumi
Learning to communicate is equal to learning to really hear what a person is trying to say. Not necessarily how the english language interprets it, but what the heart is saying.
Learning to forgive myself.
Listening to what my heart is trying to say @ the moments I am choosing to beat myself up. My ego is loud and clear, it has no time for love, no need for others, and it takes the job of protecting me from everything at all costs, very seriously.
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Forgiving myself has turned out to be much more difficult in some ways than to forgive others, although in forgiving myself, I also forgive others and give permission for others to ask forgiveness. It is a magical journey inward, I have found a quiet strength.
Learning to trust myself and trust others.
Reflecting the past. Reliving it without judgment or "taking it personal". Realizing that the perspective of my little girl self was much bigger than my "adult" perspective. Moments of fear that spread into days, days turned into months and months turned into years. My ego is also very dramatic and exaggerating
I am tired and must nap.
xoxo
