It all started in 2010, I was in social studies class we(as in the teacher and students)were talking about the years before god.To me it got boring , my eyes began to get lower and lower as the teacher talked more, finally I was fast asleep.
In this dream was there was no computers, no drinks only water, but all the food you can eat. My dream was that me and my dad(bill) were shopping for food for our house,but we heard a noise boom! boom!boom!boom! I knew i heard this noise before it was a gun. Suddenly I realized this isnt just about me, its about him, the guy with the gun and me.
He was about 11 or 12, around my age. My dad and I tried to get out of there as soon as possible, but it was to late they were after me. For some reason we ran in a gas station. My dad got something to eat, I did as well. Then I found a button, out of curiosity I pushed it. Suddenly my dad and I were in a different world. Someone found us and introduced me to everyone saying this is her this is the one who will save us all. They explained about who the boy was someone said "he is the prince of the dark side, and you you are the princess of the goodness, god sent you to us" the person who said that was wearing a huge rock that was worth over 1,000 dollars in the real word her name was Aislinn meaning the dreamer. Aislinn owned a bunch of land.
We stayed there for a couple of hours then all of us went back to the gas station. The boy was there waiting with his father. Then we all started to fight I was alone with the prince we started to talk about what he is doing still ready to fight just in case. But I think he understood what was happening so he switched sides he started to shoot his father so close to hitting him I snacthed the gun out of his hand and hit his dads ear with the gun, his ear grew back.
Aslinn yelled out they cant die unless you hit them in the heart I kept on shooting. I hit his chest and handed the price the gun. He shot his father in the heart after three shots. To make sure I shot him in his heart and let to let the prince say his due. I ran back to the gas station and cleaned myself up and when he walked in I curtsied he laughed and i did as well then he bowed.
Suddenly I woke up we were talking about a girl who was a princess who helped the prince of evil become king of goodness.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Friday, April 2, 2010
Awakening
If you feel like things are changing, if your heart is screaming at you, please watch this video. Take what you like and leave the rest. Please remember that truth resignates in your heart, it's not something you agree to, it is something you KNOW as soon as you hear it, kind of like remembering.
Peace be with you,
I love you all.
Justina
ps. AODSCARECROW channel on youtube has some good video's on the subject of; what are we? what is going on? Everything is not only going to be fine, it is already wonderful!
http://www.youtube.com/user/aodscarecrow#p/c/2788B73B87E3CA0C/0/_T7346dFnkE
Peace be with you,
I love you all.
Justina
ps. AODSCARECROW channel on youtube has some good video's on the subject of; what are we? what is going on? Everything is not only going to be fine, it is already wonderful!
http://www.youtube.com/user/aodscarecrow#p/c/2788B73B87E3CA0C/0/_T7346dFnkE
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
plans
A successful self operating group dedicated to leaving a small footprint and an everlasting heart print.
Create an international environment allowing all people to come together to share, create, learn, teach, trade, grow and love.
Create an international environment allowing all people to come together to share, create, learn, teach, trade, grow and love.
fear into love
Sometimes, it's so easy.
Other times feel like I am crawling on my face,
begging to get through.
Our energy is forceful.
Using it against each other
will surely cause the break.
Our foundation is
strong, pure.
Our hearts,
innocent.
We are changing,
our world and theirs.
We are the world,
let's do our service
turning fear
into love.
Other times feel like I am crawling on my face,
begging to get through.
Our energy is forceful.
Using it against each other
will surely cause the break.
Our foundation is
strong, pure.
Our hearts,
innocent.
We are changing,
our world and theirs.
We are the world,
let's do our service
turning fear
into love.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Kymatica
If you haven't watched this, maybe you should! enjoy : )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XqMH2f0XGeU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XqMH2f0XGeU
Saturday, March 20, 2010
awakening
Each shift (that I am aware of) feels like my senses get stronger and everything is more beautiful.
I seem to have a deeper understanding of life.
I feel closer to nature and it's animals, including the human species.
I feel at peace in my heart.
I understand that pain brings love.
I realize that everything is happening as it should.
I feel something bigger than me, I feel the light.
I am aware that things that make absolutely no sense at all to me now, soon will bring a deep understanding.
I feel healthy and strong.
I am alive, awake and in love with the world.
I seem to have a deeper understanding of life.
I feel closer to nature and it's animals, including the human species.
I feel at peace in my heart.
I understand that pain brings love.
I realize that everything is happening as it should.
I feel something bigger than me, I feel the light.
I am aware that things that make absolutely no sense at all to me now, soon will bring a deep understanding.
I feel healthy and strong.
I am alive, awake and in love with the world.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Bringing it back to the beginning.
Thinking back to the circumstances that brought forth all the questions...
I feel like I have always wondered, everything.
I remember when I first announced I had to go "find myself". All who cared about me "wondered" what in the hell that meant, as did I.
I once tried to end my life, I sat there thinking, "I, can not live with myself anymore". I guess I was going to find out who the hell I was and what myself was going to do about it.
When we talk to ourselves, who's talking? who's arguing with you? who's agreeing?
It turns out, there is more than me.
There were always so many questions. I couldn't understand this talker in my head, usually talking pure shit. Taking up all the time in my world thinking the worst about everyone and everything. Always filling me full of doubt, always nagging. Nothing was EVER good enough. Is this REALLY all there is? Is this REALLY what life is about? I couldn't believe in this. I had no idea what it was I believed, but it was not this.
I spent many years, using everything I could find, to shut this maniac up. Nothing works.
It's as scary as it gets when you start, but listening to yourself and just asking some questions can give you peace. Question yourself. Question everyone. Question Everything. Do you really believe that? Is this true?
Everything we know, everything we believe, was handed to us by our caregivers as children. All the laws were made and rules were set before we were born. When you go searching for yourself, you are looking for what it is YOU really believe, it means really asking yourself what you think. Not what your mom told you was true, or your church, or your grandma... what is true for you?
This way of thinking was handed to you at a very special event in most of our lives....
Do you remember finding out there was no Santa Claus? OR When your children found out?
This happens at the perfect time in our lives and for a very important reason.
This is our cue to question EVERYTHING we have been told.
If your parents lied to you about this, what else have they kept a secret?
what other lies have they told?
I started asking some BIG questions after losing my father and grandfather within a couple months of each other. Two very strong influences in my life.Where did they go? What is it that I REALLY believe? I started questioning everything I was telling myself and what I was understanding from others. I spent a lot of time just listening to the information I was taking in and the people I was surrounding myself with.
One specific time I remember, we were camping at Jordan lake, cruising around on our boat. I was looking down at the quakes coming up the edge of the boat, we were going pretty fast.
I was daydreaming, and thought, I wanna put my hand in the wave. Instantly, I told myself, NO, you'll die.
I'll die? WTF? Seriously, where did that come from? My guess, skiff rides in the cold winter to Hydaburg as a very small girl. Without knowing how enormous every word is, (especially to a young child learning the laws of the world) someone told me I would/could die if I did that. So, here I am 30+ years old, telling myself I will die if I put my hand out of the boat while going fast.
This was when I really woke up to the fact that maybe I tell myself all kinds of stupid shit, and I do.
Now I know to really listen to them and change my laws, just by agreeing to.
Letting some of these laws die is a lot like dying yourself, some of them are deeply ingrained into your entire life and the effects spread wide and thin. There is a let go, and let God. there is a born again. there is a heaven here on earth. there is such a thing as a clear, peaceful mind.
Here I am.
I feel like I have always wondered, everything.
I remember when I first announced I had to go "find myself". All who cared about me "wondered" what in the hell that meant, as did I.
I once tried to end my life, I sat there thinking, "I, can not live with myself anymore". I guess I was going to find out who the hell I was and what myself was going to do about it.
When we talk to ourselves, who's talking? who's arguing with you? who's agreeing?
It turns out, there is more than me.
There were always so many questions. I couldn't understand this talker in my head, usually talking pure shit. Taking up all the time in my world thinking the worst about everyone and everything. Always filling me full of doubt, always nagging. Nothing was EVER good enough. Is this REALLY all there is? Is this REALLY what life is about? I couldn't believe in this. I had no idea what it was I believed, but it was not this.
I spent many years, using everything I could find, to shut this maniac up. Nothing works.
It's as scary as it gets when you start, but listening to yourself and just asking some questions can give you peace. Question yourself. Question everyone. Question Everything. Do you really believe that? Is this true?
Everything we know, everything we believe, was handed to us by our caregivers as children. All the laws were made and rules were set before we were born. When you go searching for yourself, you are looking for what it is YOU really believe, it means really asking yourself what you think. Not what your mom told you was true, or your church, or your grandma... what is true for you?
This way of thinking was handed to you at a very special event in most of our lives....
Do you remember finding out there was no Santa Claus? OR When your children found out?
This happens at the perfect time in our lives and for a very important reason.
This is our cue to question EVERYTHING we have been told.
If your parents lied to you about this, what else have they kept a secret?
what other lies have they told?
I started asking some BIG questions after losing my father and grandfather within a couple months of each other. Two very strong influences in my life.Where did they go? What is it that I REALLY believe? I started questioning everything I was telling myself and what I was understanding from others. I spent a lot of time just listening to the information I was taking in and the people I was surrounding myself with.
One specific time I remember, we were camping at Jordan lake, cruising around on our boat. I was looking down at the quakes coming up the edge of the boat, we were going pretty fast.
I was daydreaming, and thought, I wanna put my hand in the wave. Instantly, I told myself, NO, you'll die.
I'll die? WTF? Seriously, where did that come from? My guess, skiff rides in the cold winter to Hydaburg as a very small girl. Without knowing how enormous every word is, (especially to a young child learning the laws of the world) someone told me I would/could die if I did that. So, here I am 30+ years old, telling myself I will die if I put my hand out of the boat while going fast.
This was when I really woke up to the fact that maybe I tell myself all kinds of stupid shit, and I do.
Now I know to really listen to them and change my laws, just by agreeing to.
Letting some of these laws die is a lot like dying yourself, some of them are deeply ingrained into your entire life and the effects spread wide and thin. There is a let go, and let God. there is a born again. there is a heaven here on earth. there is such a thing as a clear, peaceful mind.
Here I am.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
The Tipping Point by Malcolm Gladwell
http://www.gladwell.com/tippingpoint/index.html
Through the wonderful world of meeting and making friends (Richard Gamble of Deep Roots ), this book was given to me a couple weeks ago and my thoughts have not been the same since.
The paradigms that are deeply embedded in our lives are shed moment by moment, truth by truth.
Through the wonderful world of meeting and making friends (Richard Gamble of Deep Roots ), this book was given to me a couple weeks ago and my thoughts have not been the same since.
The paradigms that are deeply embedded in our lives are shed moment by moment, truth by truth.
Friday, January 29, 2010
All life on our planet...
Enjoyed our first ladies night (which will eventually evolve into all life on our planet : )!
It was so awesome to have an assortment of diverse, amazing women together in a cozy setting, having a blast!
In my search I have found millions of ways to:
change myself = change the world,
everyday, everything and every dollar.
Aware of each minute change carrying on from generation to generation, seeing it's rippling river affect!
Choosing to slow down and enjoy my moments... (gazing at the sun, clouds, birds, moon, trees, shadows, black winter trees on the horizon of a glorious sunset, people talking on cell phones and picking their nose, feeling the breeze, listening to a good jam, saying grace, daydreaming in thoughts of my fabulous life, etc., etc.)... while sitting at a stop sign sure changes everything I do and everything that I come in contact with. It's much easier to be friendly and peaceful.
Choosing to eat each bite as if it is a masterpiece of nutrition, taste and most importantly... love.
(please watch Food Inc. soon we will be enjoying whole, organic, locally grown, in-season foods. ; )
Choosing to act vs. react
Choosing love vs. fear
Choosing to listen and understand more than talking and being understood.
Choosing to see myself in everyone and everything I encounter.
It has been 16 months since I stopped participating in society as we know it : )
I:
have been to walmart/malls/chain stores/ less then 5 times. (after 2am @ walmart)
have had less than five bites of fast food of ANY type.
have no desire to spend $1 more than I have to at ANY gas station and I don't.
carry a water bottle with me EVERYWHERE I go.
have not consumed any pharmaceuticals
do not own a t.v and have not had cable for 16+ years
do not consume high-fructose corn syrup, meat, dairy, corn, fillers, fluoride, artificial anything.
consumed alcohol less than 5 times.
do not alter my appearance/clothing/lifestyle to the anyone else. I am unique and proud.
do not click on m s n( preventing a link to a terrible site) , yahoo, or any other "news" type sites.
have spent less than 5 nights loafing on the computer.
have not watched the news, listened to the radio or talked about a celebrity. (I am still alive).
choose to eat raw, fresh, organic, local EVERY chance I get.
and I STILL SMOKE CIGARETTES!!
( american spirits :) If your gonna smoke, let it be natural, organic and locally grown.
I am a dreamer and I have a dream. Everyday I see this dream becoming a reality.
I am becoming WE.
Big Love and grace,
xoxo Justina
It was so awesome to have an assortment of diverse, amazing women together in a cozy setting, having a blast!
In my search I have found millions of ways to:
change myself = change the world,
everyday, everything and every dollar.
Aware of each minute change carrying on from generation to generation, seeing it's rippling river affect!
Choosing to slow down and enjoy my moments... (gazing at the sun, clouds, birds, moon, trees, shadows, black winter trees on the horizon of a glorious sunset, people talking on cell phones and picking their nose, feeling the breeze, listening to a good jam, saying grace, daydreaming in thoughts of my fabulous life, etc., etc.)... while sitting at a stop sign sure changes everything I do and everything that I come in contact with. It's much easier to be friendly and peaceful.
Choosing to eat each bite as if it is a masterpiece of nutrition, taste and most importantly... love.
(please watch Food Inc. soon we will be enjoying whole, organic, locally grown, in-season foods. ; )
Choosing to act vs. react
Choosing love vs. fear
Choosing to listen and understand more than talking and being understood.
Choosing to see myself in everyone and everything I encounter.
It has been 16 months since I stopped participating in society as we know it : )
I:
have been to walmart/malls/chain stores/ less then 5 times. (after 2am @ walmart)
have had less than five bites of fast food of ANY type.
have no desire to spend $1 more than I have to at ANY gas station and I don't.
carry a water bottle with me EVERYWHERE I go.
have not consumed any pharmaceuticals
do not own a t.v and have not had cable for 16+ years
do not consume high-fructose corn syrup, meat, dairy, corn, fillers, fluoride, artificial anything.
consumed alcohol less than 5 times.
do not alter my appearance/clothing/lifestyle to the anyone else. I am unique and proud.
do not click on m s n( preventing a link to a terrible site) , yahoo, or any other "news" type sites.
have spent less than 5 nights loafing on the computer.
have not watched the news, listened to the radio or talked about a celebrity. (I am still alive).
choose to eat raw, fresh, organic, local EVERY chance I get.
and I STILL SMOKE CIGARETTES!!
( american spirits :) If your gonna smoke, let it be natural, organic and locally grown.
I am a dreamer and I have a dream. Everyday I see this dream becoming a reality.
I am becoming WE.
Big Love and grace,
xoxo Justina
Saturday, January 16, 2010
lol, love.
Have you ever tried to meditate and find you can't shut your mind up? There you are arguing with yourself, irritated cause you can't get yourself to just be quiet for a minute, the grocery list and what you should've said still going around and around up there?
A friend gave me some great advice I thought I'd share.
Just listen. No judging, labeling and making sure you get your opinion in, just listen.
(the word has a bad rap for some of us as we hear our gramma in church hisssssing, lisssten).
Listen to the symphony of different sounds going on around you, hear the grand Orchestra, playing just for you, here, now, in this moment.
Justina Rae
p.s. turns out, I have all kinds of things to say now that I've given myself endless blank pages : )
A friend gave me some great advice I thought I'd share.
Listen.
Just listen. No judging, labeling and making sure you get your opinion in, just listen.
(the word has a bad rap for some of us as we hear our gramma in church hisssssing, lisssten).
Listen to the symphony of different sounds going on around you, hear the grand Orchestra, playing just for you, here, now, in this moment.
That is clearing your mind.xoxo
Justina Rae
p.s. turns out, I have all kinds of things to say now that I've given myself endless blank pages : )
WOW! Life is a trip.
Have you ever paused for a moment and looked at your life objectively? Look as if you are a bird, or God. Completely without judgment, look at all the people in your life as if they are actors in a movie.
What's going on?
This can be so tricky, I am aware of 3 or 4 times that I have done this in the last.... 16 months. I "thought" I was aware of the things going on, choosing to be okay with what is vs. what is "good" or "bad".
A few evenings ago I was lying on my bed letting the work day roll off, relaxing.
Suddenly I saw myself laying there.
In my mind, I jumped up and screamed......
What in the fuck has been going on around here? and who are you? How did I get here? and where in the universe have I been?
WOW!
Life is a trip.
Things have not been the same since. I have been moving, and moving. :)
I am here now, I think.
I am bigger and badder than ever!
xoxo Big Love.
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